Community star Donald Glover has opened up about what led to his decision to post a series of disturbing Instagram confessions Monday.
His long list of dark admissions included: "I'm afraid my parents won't live long enough to see my kids," "I'm afraid people hate who I really am," "I'm afraid people think I hate my race," "I'm afraid people think I hate women," and "I'm scared I'll never grow out of bro rape." (The reference to "bro rape" refers to an early sketch by Glover's comedy troupe, Derrick Comedy.) They were handwritten on Marriott hotel stationary.
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On Wednesday, Glover told People what spurred the posts.
"That night, we had a show, and then afterwards, I had this moment of feeling like, 'What's the point? Why am I even here?' " Glover said. "I just wanted to write down my feelings. I definitely was just expressing myself."
He emphasized that he is not suffering from depression.
"I was just tired of telling people I was tired. It felt like every day someone would ask, 'What's wrong. Are you OK?' " says Glover. "And I would say, 'I'm tired, I'm tired.' I didn't want to do that anymore. I guess sometimes not telling the truth is just as bad as telling a lie."
Still, he said he's glad he was able to get his thoughts off his chest.
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"It felt like I had been holding on to something," he added.
Glover, who committed to a shortened season of Community this year -- ostensibly to focus more on his rap music as alter ego Childish Gambino -- also made several references to his career in the posts. In one, he denies that his music pursuits were the reason he left the NBC sitcom.
Asked by People to elaborate, he declined.
